Yes, I know, I know, I haven't posted in FOREVER! The only reason, really, is that I've been crazy busy, and haven't really done or thought of anything that exciting to share.

Some of you may know that Rusty and I are facing some unsettling unknowns right now. Some days I feel pretty good about them, and some days I'm a wreck, but my old friend Sara Groves came on Pandora with this song this morning and it really spoke to me, so I thought I'd share...

What I Thought I Wanted

By Sara Groves
Tuxedo in the closet, gold band in a box Two days from the altar she went and called the whole thing off What he thought he wanted, what he got instead Leaves him broken and grateful I passed understanding a long, long time ago And the simple home of systems and answers we all know What I thought I wanted, what I got instead Leaves me broken and somehow peaceful I keep wanting you to be fair But that’s not what you said I want certain answers to these prayers But that’s not what you said When I get to heaven I’m gonna go find Job I want to ask a few hard questions, I want to know what he knows About what it is he wanted and what he got instead How to be broken and faithful What I thought I wanted What I thought I wanted What I thought I wanted What I thought I wanted Staring in the water like Esops foolish dog I can’t help but reflect on what it was I almost lost What it was I wanted, what I got instead Leaves me broken and grateful I’m broken and grateful I want to be broken and grateful I want to be broken, peaceful, faithful, grateful, grateful I want to be broken, peaceful, faithful, grateful, grateful

So...unknown and unsettled is where we find ourselves, but I do recognize that my HOPE (not optimism, as I heard from my husband's sermon a few weeks ago, but HOPE) rests in a faithful God who works all things for our good, so this song is my prayer right now. We are broken in some ways, but STILL grateful and hopefully peaceful and faithful too.